Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I have kind of a thing about this holiday - I need it to be a holiday that I spend with a lot of people. I experience a level of depression inversely tied to the number of people I'm planning on spending Thanksgiving with; just a handful of people = Elissa mood funk, large group of people = oh, happiness. It just feels all wrong to me to not have a crowd of people around, be it family or friends or both. However, this Thanksgiving it will be just my husband and I and our two boys, so I was really surprised yesterday when I realized that I don't feel bad that it will be just the four of us--I'm actually looking forward to our mini-holiday at home.
I think it's due to the fact that I'm starting to feel like my little family of four really counts. We can have conversations with booga bear and he is growing into his role as the big brother. I'm feeling fully invested in raising a family; with one kid I had moments when I felt I was only playing house, but with two kids that is no longer the case. (Now I feel like I'm only playing at having a life outside of raising a family).
This Thanksgiving will be our first holiday in our first house. We're planning on going to Mass, I think I'll take booga bear to the park no matter the weather, make some videos of our four month old, we'll probably use skype to talk with family.The meal is going to be simple and I'm not sure if the turkey will be thawed enough to cook, but I have a lot to look forward to. All in all, four is feeling like a pretty sweet number for the day.